As temporarily satisfying as that would be, I know my Lord expects differently from me. And the more I pray and give God all my questions as to why this would happen, the more I'm given a sense of....well, pity I guess. I feel SORRY for this person. To be that clearly confused as to where they're going...it's frustrating, I know. I've been there. I want answers to life's questions too.
Being that my love language is physical touch, I really craving people right now. I want so much to cuddle with a roommate and spill my heart, my frustrations. I want to call a friend with a motorcycle to ride around for a while and release my anger and hurt by the intensity of the ride. I want to throw myself at anything else that will distract me from what I don't really have right now.
But I know I need Jesus. I need Him to cradle my heart as I hurt. I need Him as I vocalize my frustration and pain. I need Him to surround me and whisper truth that wipes away the lies that try to infiltrate.
Danielle,
ReplyDeleteI am so thankful that God led me to this post..and yes, I truly believe that HE is the one who led me to it. Yesterday was a pretty discouraging day for me. I have no idea what is going on with you but I am in the same boat. I am extremely tempted to vent and unleash my fury, to let anger get the best of me, and to beg God for an answer as to why He is letting ________ happen. I am struggling right now to see His purposes for my particular situation. Anyway, please know that I am praying for you today and that you are not alone. If you have time this weekend or this week and want to chat give me a call. I am trying to keep myself out of trouble so the more people I hang out with that will help keep me out of trouble, the merrier. I LOVE YOU SWEET GIRL!!!!! <3